finally the end of the year...

so this year's end is bittersweet for me. i am done with finals this semester and i'm getting a lot of hours at work so that is a relief and a blessing. my personal life on the other hand, is falling apart. my bf and i broke up and its killing me! i still love him and i hate being apart from him. i tried dealing with it by staying in my sweats and not getting out of bed for a day or so, i tried watching tv and hanging with my roomie (which did lift my spirits a little), i tried getting drunk and swearing him off (that did not work at all!).so i am at a loss, i dont know what to try next. so my holidays r a little less bright this year without him. and i only get a couple of days off work so i wont be home for that long, which is a definite bummer! it doesnt feel like Christmas when im not home for the decorating and the baking and all the fun Christmas stuff. oh well, i will try to make the best of it. im excited to see the fam! i need their support right now! im so grateful to have all of them!